THANK YOU.

Hey blog. It's been a while. Been stuck with school works for the past two weeks. And we are rushing to shoot the video for our Lit final requirement. But, hey. I need to update you with things, right? I'm gonna share something.

Well, this week, things have been confusing for me. In terms of profession, of course. As you know, I was taking up Accountancy at first but then I shifted to Business Management because I don't like accounting. Funny how people would assume that I can't take it. That it's too hard for my brain to handle. After all, I was just another pretty face for him/her. Then why did I take up Accountancy, you ask? Because I believe that my mom knows best. I don't want ANY course.Besides, I was really gearing towards taking up a pre-med course but I was coward as hell to put my stand on it.

But. But. But. Speculations flooded my surroundings. I would often hear things like these: 1) I'm just really too dumb that's why I shifted, 2) "'Di n'ya lang kaya e." And yes, I let it all go... I let them speak their mind.

And then, this sem, I was really really frustrated that I didn't pursue Medicine. All the things that happened when my Lolo was in critical condition worsen my frustration. Given the chance, I really will. It's been my life long dream to become a neurologist. But you know what? Things don't happen the way we plan them to. Tuition fees for medical courses, let alone Medicine proper, are so high that if I ever decided to take that road, my mom would have to go back to Japan to work. And I wouldn't want that. See, that's the main thing why I didn't pursue Medicine. Okay, maybe another thing could be that I am afraid. Afraid that I might fall short of the expectations of the people around me. That I would not earn my PhD.

What really cuts deep is that people underestimate me. They keep on telling me that I can't take Med. "'Di mo kakayanin." Well bravo. Who are you people to make limits? Who are you to tell me that I can't achieve something that I've always dreamed of? Yeah it really hurts.

But I wanted to say THANK YOU to all those people. To those people who just looked at me like just another girl chasing down her dreams. For making me feel worthless. For saying to me that I can't do things. For trying to contain me and hold me back. THANK YOU. Because you've given me the drive to prove you all wrong. To make your jaws drop the moment I get my PhD (if ever I'll pursue Med, which I think I will) or when I become a successful businessman (which I know, in God's will, I'm going to be). To prove to you that not everything you assume is how things will play out.

I'm so much bigger than what you've been portraying me to be. My dreams are bigger than this. And they're bigger than all of you, doubters. Thank you for making me realize I'm worth so much more. After all, as the saying by Walter Bagehot goes, "The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do." Watch me.